I even miss our silly fights- Darrlyn Worley

I miss the look of surrender in your eyes
The way your soft brown hair would fall
I miss the power of your kiss when we made love
Oh But baby most of all

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I miss my friend
The one my heart and soul confided in
The one I felt the safest with
The one who knew just what to say to make me laugh again
And let the light back in
I miss my friend

I miss the colors that you brought into my life
Your golden smile, those blue-green eyes
I miss your gentle voice in lonely times like now
Saying it'll be alright

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I miss those times
I miss those nights
I even miss our silly fights
The making up
The morning talks
And those late afternoon walks
I miss my friend

This week has been hard. Sometimes I wish I could let people in my head to see how I am really feeling. It can be so hard to explain things sometimes. Adjusting to a new life is not easy. I am responsible for everything now. All the bills, the housework, the yard work,  parenting, school, work, maintaining relationships with family and friends. I feel like I have been slacking in my friendships and family relationships lately. I miss them. I miss visiting and laughing. Maybe I should have waited to start the master's program. I have been living life in such a rush, I guess I am afraid of running out of time. I wish I could could just stop and be still. Finding balance is so hard. I miss having a partner to help me. I miss having that someone at home that when I am feeling weak, he steps in and picks up my slack. There is no one there to pick up my slack anymore. It's all on me. I feel as though I am moving at ninety to nothing on an empty tank of gas. I am pulled in so many different directions I feel like that stretchy man I played with as a kid. All I can do is make it to my sanctuary...my home. I have always had a house to live in, but this is my home. It's a place where Trent and I can escape. I love my little white house.

ZZZZZZZOOOOOOOMMMMM!!!!!

Stella

 My Haven